I suck at life, in comparison to people I admire

Ugh. I just spent the past couple hours stalking people online I deem amazing. Now I am feeling crappy. I envy people who do a ton of stuff and are naturally amazing at the stuff they do. It doesn't matter what thing or two they're doing. As long as they're bad ass, I praise them. They inspire me. The way they live their lives fascinate me. I love being around them. But then often times they also make me feel crap because it reminds me of my inability to become better at anything I do. I hate not being on top of my shit, especially when I know I am giving my all. I don't like hitting my wall. It's frustrating when I can't get myself to the next level.

I am very hard on myself. Fine. But I don't give up easily. Honestly, it is challenge that drives me to get up every day and keep doing what I am doing. I wish I had more discipline and can think analytically better, but I guess I wouldn't be as spontaneous, free-spirited as I am right now if I were too disciplined and are too analytical.

For now, baby steps!